I took Haryn for a walk today and it was lovely to smell all those apple blossoms….I remembered how much the orange blossoms permeated the air as well as jasmines and temple flowers. So beautiful. It is a sunny hot day and was a great opportunity to enjoy the fresh air. Hope you all are enjoying your various weather 
I love summer.
May 202011
May 192011
Okay, this was fascinating! I could use so many other words, but we will stop at fascinating. Last night, I had a nightmare again…different subject completely to the last one. Toward the end of my bad dream I was sobbing (in the dream) and I woke up because I was sobbing so hard in real life that my body was shaking so much and it woke me up. I have never ever experienced this kind of thing before. I am curious if others have had that sort of experience. I know of people who have dreamt they were falling and woken up as they hit the floor in reality, but sobbing…geez!!! Luckily, I could cuddle up to Chuti and went into a very peaceful sleep after that. I think I will start meditating before I sleep as well now just to clear my mind before going to bed.
I have been feeling very tired since Thursday, May 12th. On Friday, we went to the club as the kids had swimming lessons and Chuti was going to play tennis with Kiren. I was going to swim and work-out. I felt much better in the morning, but when we were on the way to the club, I started to feel dizzy, nauseous and I was shivering. It was difficult to function and I started to have all sorts of thoughts of what could be wrong with me, but I really had no idea. On Sunday, May 15, I got my period which just aggravated my symptoms. I realized that maybe I am very anemic…I checked the symptoms at http://familydoctor.org/online/famdocen/home/common/blood/009.html
and sure enough I have all the symptoms, even the food craving. In the past, I know that the only time I ever craved a burger was when my body was low in iron. Chuti went and got me a burger and it was a little unsettling to get it down…but I did. It did not do its usual magic right away, but then again I have never felt this level of symptoms before…usually I just get the craving for a burger, I eat it and I am good to go…..A few hours later, I started to feel a little better, but still feel very dizzy at times.
The night before last, I had a terrible nightmare. I rarely have bad dreams, so this was really unsettling. I got up in the middle of the night, sweating. I am not going to get into the details of the dream, it is so very personal…let’s just say I would only share the details of it with two people in the whole world. The worst thing is that it felt so real, even when I was awake. I woke up scared and just disgusted with myself and wondering how I couldn’t remember this as part of my reality. Luckily these words came to me (in my mind) from a wise “old” Buddhist friend, “Remember sweetheart, the mind is a very slippery thing. When you try to learn to control it, it can take you down paths that can just get you lost. In Vippassana meditation (I am currently studying this, but I am not practicing yet because I want to do it under guidance), people have gone crazy in the process of analyzing their thinking. Beware and be careful.” I interrupted the panic feelings and analyzed. I started to unravel what seemed so real, but was not. I asked myself questions and checked and re-checked what I knew against this dream. It was just very unnerving. It took me a long time to settle down, in fact…I don’t think I really did. A few hours later, Chuti stirred (I didn’t want to wake him earlier as I knew he really needed his sleep that night) and I talked it out with him and then I fell into a deep deep sleep for about 4 hours and woke up feeling a whole lot better.
Once upon a time, there was a Prince and he was a very sweet Prince. He cared about those around him, he was kind and generous, sweet and serving and always kept his word. One day, he dropped his golden tennis ball into a deep well and was very sad. A warty Frogette told him she would dive and retrieve it for him if he promised to share his life with her for three days. He promised and she delivered. Right away, he invited her to join him. She was surprised, she expected resistance and trickery, but here she was shown kindness in spite of her very “healthy” warts. He took her home to the palace and saw to her every need. She was so grateful and with his kind attention and loving service, her warts slowly smoothed away. He shared his meals with her and his pillow for three night and on the morning after the third night, when the Prince awoke, beside him lay a most ethereal beauty. She told him that she had been put under a spell and turned into an ugly Frogette. The only way to break the spell was to find a Prince who would share his food and pillow for three days. The witch had told the Frogette that it wasn’t going to be easy. The last time the witch had put the spell on a Prince and the Princess whose ball he had retrieved had tried to get out of sharing her food and pillow and was very unkind until of course he had turned into a Prince, then the story was different. The beauty told the Prince that because of his pure heart, he had smoothed her warts and she had been turned even more beautiful than she had been before the witch had cursed her. The Prince, the gentle Prince was overjoyed and pledged to love her and cherish her all the days of her life if she would but consent to marry him. She was not just beautiful, but very intelligent. She had fallen madly in love with this pure soul from the time he had invited her as a Frogette to his palace and shared everything with only loving kindness in his heart. She gave him her hand and they started their journey.
May 152011
It was a beautiful day today and we were outside in the afternoon.I have been sick for the last number of days so it was nice to enjoy the fresh air.
May 152011
There are certain friends in our lives who can never be replaced. Well some people will argue that no one can be replaced and yes that is true, every one has unique qualities they bring to the table. Certain friends with whom we have a depth of a relationship, those friends who always tell us the truth, no matter how painful it is, those are the friends I want to celebrate today. I have a few of these friends whom I love very dearly. They add that extra spring to my step and widen my already wide smile. These friends are trustworthy and always there no matter what. What is so interesting about these type of friends is that even if we don’t talk for days, months, years or even decades, when we connect again, it is like we have never been apart. I am so thankful for the friends I have of this nature. I wish you all peace, love and joy. You know who you are. Know that you are always within my heart. Even when I am not talking with you, I hear your advice, your chiding, your amusement and your praise.
Apr 182011
I love horseback riding and have felt this way since the first time I tried it which was in June of 1986. I was 11 years old at that time.
Today, we went to this other strip of beach for lunch. We had a wonderful sushi lunch at a shady picnic bench and then went to play in the ocean. Haryn needed my help with something, for which I had to take him to the van. Chuti gave me the key and in all the effort to help Haryn, I completely blanked out that Chuti had given me the key. Of course I locked the door using the button in the van, before going to join the rest of them at the water. When it was time to go, we figured out very quickly what had transpired. The kids had tennis 40 minutes from then, their tennis stuff was in the van and we were a good 20 minutes walk away from the club. Mohyna also had to go to the bathroom badly…emergency apparently. So, I did something I had never done before, I tried to hitch a ride. Before 3 minutes had passed, a guy, who was leaving the parking lot of the beach, agreed to give Devika, Mohyna and me a ride to Cedars, after Chuti had explained our predicament.
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